Is it if not

What do you do when you no longer recognize yourself? How long does it take… how much time until you disavow? When do you stop responding to your name? Who is it that you become if not yourself?

Life seems so interminable while it is so painfully temporary, even the stages and the moments are terribly fleeting. The hard parts seem to lag while the ecstasy is gone almost as soon as you recognize it. Meanwhile everything is changing as the earth rotates below the heavens slowly making imprints on our faces and souls. Rotating us around our own axis so that we see the world from a completely different angle. Sometimes this change of perspective, coupled with rigid definitions of self, creates the illusion that we have changed, that we are unrecognizable. But in truth we are merely looking out a new window, looking in a new direction, and looking back with fresh eyes. It is the combination or all the paths our feet and our hearts take multiplied by all the flights our minds take that makes us who we are in any one moment and it is also the journeys that leave us so dizzy at times.

Like with exercise and travel it is the movement that can bring clarity and calmness of thought. Sometimes sitting still wraps and twists so much that with my own mind I have concocted a net, a prison, a guard and a gate; One move and the string tightens restricting me all together. But it is all in my head. Again it is all in my head. It is time to let time move my perspective. It is time to take a walk. Or begin a journey.